Day Nineteen & Twenty
I have no excuse for not working out on Tuesday besides that I was really busy (which doesn’t really cut it), but I do have a pretty good reason for not working out yesterday. I sustained a minor injury when I was leaving for work yesterday morning by slamming my left hand in our apartment door and now I have a throbbing, black middle fingernail. I know, I know, it’s not a huge deal, but I’m terrible at dealing with pain and the added pressure of lifting the weights really wasn’t bearable on my hand last night. At least I tried to see if I could make it through it. Luckily I already had a doctors appointment scheduled for tomorrow morning, and since my finger is still swollen and has it’s own heartbeat I’m going to see if she’ll drain it out to relieve the pressure. Apparently they heat up a needle and burn a hole through the nail to let all the blood out. Sounds pretty awful, but I can’t believe how much pain one little fingernail is causing me right now. I can’t even write! Ugh.
Anyway, I’ve really fallen out of my workout routine lately, usually doing two days in a row, then skipping one or two days, and repeating that pattern. I’m disappointed in myself, but still trying to to get discouraged to the point that I just give up. I think what I’m going to do is continue level 2 until the end of the month and then move on to level 3, and make it an absolute priority not to skip any more days. I won’t be completing the challenge that I originally joined but I will still be completing the shred and doing something good for myself. It isn’t about anyone or anything but me, and I need to remember that. So maybe everyone will stop reading this because its beginning to look like I’m a pathetic failure, but that’s not the point. I want to get in shape, and I want to see results, and I want to have discipline and self-control and feel good about myself. It doesn’t matter it it takes 30 days, or 40 days, or 60 days, as long as I don’t give up.
